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It's so weird looking back to my older self. I used to be so active here 2-3 years ago. I used to be a lot more happier, yet I do not miss these times. This was not my real self at all. My beliefs then are very different from my beliefs now. I wish my older self could see and understand me now, so "she" could see that she was wrong in a lot of ways.
This "Canon", used to believe her love for dead or 70 year old rockstars would last forever and ever. "She" spent all day daydreaming about the 60s and 70s. Wishing to go back to that time. Being detached from the cruel reality. The beliefs "she" had were childish and immature, not to say completely inhuman.
The 60s and the 70s weren't an amazing era. Well, they might have been for the privileged, white people. But for people of colour, disabled people, queer people, transgender people etc. The minority was happy. I am so ashamed of myself for thinking it was such a great time.
And seriously, that obsession, the so called "love" for old rockstars who I'd never meet and where 70 years old or dead was just funny. Don't get me wrong, I still love the music, but man, what the hell was that obsession all about.
2014 was a year of self discovery for me. I found out that my assigned sex did not match my gender. I am actually non-binary agender, meaning I do not have a gender. "She" is not "she" anymore. I am Kenji. My pronouns are they/them/their. People in real life do not accept me, only 1 friend. But online, I am surrounded by caring and loving friends, especially a certain boy that I adore and am very fond of.
I love anime, manga, mecha robots, coffee, naps, soft beds, attention, affection, ghouls, reading, writing and fighting for equality.
I am no longer an heterosexual female. I am a pansexual/romanic transgender individual. I don't like looking back to my older self because she's not me. I am more me now than I ever was.
Thank you for reading this and please comment if you want to. I'd love to catch up with some of my old friends here. If you have any questions I'll gladly answer them.It is I, Neffii, back from the grave. by Neffii
It is I, Neffii, back from the grave.
It's so weird looking back to my older self. I used to be so active here 2-3 years ago. I used to be a lot more happier, yet I do not miss these times. This was not my real self at all. My beliefs then are very different from my beliefs now. I wish my older self could see and understand me now, so "she" could see that she was wrong in a lot of ways.
This "Canon", used to believe her love for dead or 70 year old rockstars would last forever and ever. "She" spent all day daydreaming about the 60s and 70s. Wishing to go back to that time. Being detached from the cruel reality. The beliefs "she" had were childish and immature, not to say completely inhuman.
The 60s and the 70s weren't an amazing era. Well, they might have been for the privileged, white people. But for people of colour, disabled people, queer people, transgender people etc. The minority was happy. I am so ashamed of myself for thinking it was such a great time.
And seriously, that obsession, the so called "love" for old rockstars who I'd never meet and where 70 years old or dead was just funny. Don't get me wrong, I still love the music, but man, what the hell was that obsession all about.
2014 was a year of self discovery for me. I found out that my assigned sex did not match my gender. I am actually non-binary agender, meaning I do not have a gender. "She" is not "she" anymore. I am Kenji. My pronouns are they/them/their. People in real life do not accept me, only 1 friend. But online, I am surrounded by caring and loving friends, especially a certain boy that I adore and am very fond of.
I love anime, manga, mecha robots, coffee, naps, soft beds, attention, affection, ghouls, reading, writing and fighting for equality.
I am no longer an heterosexual female. I am a pansexual/romanic transgender individual. I don't like looking back to my older self because she's not me. I am more me now than I ever was.
Thank you for reading this and please comment if you want to. I'd love to catch up with some of my old friends here. If you have any questions I'll gladly answer them.
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Kenji
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I'm Kenji.
I'm agender. My pronouns are they/them/their.
My personality type is INFP.
I draw and write sometimes
The internet is my salvation from reality.
I'm a sad and lonely ghoul.
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SyddyGurl Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Scroll down trust me this will put a smile on your face, make your day, or help you <3 

Every night , someone thinks about you before they go to sleep,

At least fifteen people in this world love you.

The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you

There are at least two people in this world that would die for you

You mean the world to someone.

Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

When you make the biggest mistake ever,something good comes from it.

When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look.

Always remember the compliments you've received.

Forget the rude remarks.

So if you are a loving friend, send this to everyone on your list including the person that sent it to you.

Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they like you.

Something good will happen to you between 12 in the morning and four o'clock pm tomorrow, it could be anywere . Get ready for the biggest shock in your life

Do not break this chain. Send this to fifteen people in fifteen minutes !!

Make Someone else's day! Help get a smile on someone's face! Help someone out! <3 remember that your loved
F.R.I.E.N.D.S. 😉
= Fight for you 
= Respect you
= Involve you
= Encourage you
= Need you 
= Deserve you 
= Save you

Send this to all your friends & me if I'm one......If you get 4 back you are liked but if you 
get 7 back then you are seriously loved 😊 Heart
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Melancholy-Minds Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013
Thank you very much for the watch and faves; I greatly appreciate them!
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Neffii Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem. I'm here to praise people who make great things. 
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Leustante Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Shingeki no Kyojin.. Thank you for respecting this anime.

(I have Eren's attire.. I plan on uploading my personal photography soon..)
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Neffii Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Aww this is so great! This comment made my day. I'm looking forward to seeing your Eren pictures. 
I respect SNK a lot and I think it's one the best made anime I've seen.
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Leustante Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
It is one of the best anime out there to be very honest. I have just uploaded a low quality (sorry) temporary photo of my Eren cosplay. I will be removing this one and replacing it with proper photos as soon as I can get a someone else to take them and find my real camera.
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Neffii Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Cool. I checked your profile but couldn't find your Eren cosplay, do you know when you will post it?
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enjoymystorybook Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the :iconpikafavplz: :iconyuihugplz:
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Neffii Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem!!!! :iconyuihugplz:
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Fboss90 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thanksfor the fav
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